And there's always rebel...

Messy room...

2010-04-02T20:30:00.004+08:00

Messy room...Hmmm...Where should i start...It seems like over this past 3 years, I really had stored a lot of things in my room, my shelf, my cupboard, below my bed, even the corner of my room, are all packed with things...And rubbish...[sigh] So how? Can somebody tell me where should I start, a disaster is going to take place in my room...Thank you...And I'm lazy...

Sigh of relief...

2010-04-01T12:22:00.005+08:00

“A104226 LAM CHENSHEN lulus…” Really can’t believe I hear that from dean, as I was sitting anxiously, rubbing my fingers, with my cold sweaty palms, looking over to Julian and Hafiz, trying to get some reassurance…Yes, I got it…Finally, I can breath a sigh of relief…5 years of medical school, probably this is what we all have been waiting for. Still remember what a professor told us during my first year, “you are climbing the highest mountain now, you might fall or bump along the way, but don’t worry, get up and keep going, you will reach the highest point at some day”. Well, I have to say, it is not easy, the 5 years is like a battlefield, everyday you have to armoured yourself with knowledge and skills, and be prepared for any questions or tasks thrown to you, and more crucial, be prepared for losing, scolding, or down-grading. (A bit exaggerated, but I think you get what I mean). Anyway, we survive it.

There is really no word can express my gratitude now but only “Thank You”. Thank you to all the lecturers who have taught me and scolded me, to become a better doctor and person. Your dedications had given us the light in our darkest path. Thank you to my study mates, without u guys, my study and reading won’t be so interesting, fun and enjoyable. Thank you to all my friends who had given me the supports which I needed most when I’m down and sad. And of course, thank you to my family members, especially my parents, you are the persons who I can always turn to, who I can always depend on...

This might not be the highest point in our path; there are a lot of challenges waiting for us, every chapters end with a beginning of a new chapter, may all of us have a great new challenging life ahead. And to my dear friends, do keep in touch…love you…

Gaining weight...

2009-09-20T17:47:00.004+08:00

The first thing I got home was to have myself standing on the weighing machine. As I've promised myself, one of the targets I had set earlier this year was to increase my weight. Being underweight for the past 20++years, I have always trying to increase my weight. My BMI (body mass index) was always under 18kg/m2. I didn’t really mean to offense those who are trying to reduce weight, but I’m really a hard-gainer. Lose weight to me is very easy, but gain weight is like harder than passing an exam. Anyway, after a few months of intensive workout and high-caloric diet, my weight seems to increase “a bit”. Really glad that I've finally gotten into the category of “normal weight”. And my BMI now is 20 kg/m2. However, this is just the beginning. To maintain the weight is another story. And I know in the following few months, my weight will sure drop, as my following posting will be very busy and stressful. Then the whole cycle have to start again. What to do! I can just try as much as possible to carb up myself during this one week holiday before the next big lose...haha...

District 9

2009-09-13T12:10:00.003+08:00

Unlike most sci-fi film, "District 9" shows a rather different presentation of alien invasion. Instead of showing high technology weapon of aliens and hostile attack by alien, the aliens were sadly the refugees contained in a place known as District 9 in this film. The director brilliantly making the film in a faux-documentary style which eventually turn into a touching heroic story. Without any big name behind the film, it still definitely have the goods. It reflects on cruel human nature, diversity and some controversial issues, including weaponry trading, illegal experiments, violence, etc. The interesting concept with a captivating backstory had make the film a success. It's not a film with high budget, thrilling special effects, or mass action scene, but the compelling characters had exceed beyond all these. Overall, this is a nice film, and it's really worth watching it.

Lazy bug...

2009-09-12T22:08:00.004+08:00

There are just 6 more months to my professional exam, the final exam for my whole 5 years of medical degree, and I haven't prepare anything for it. What am I doing? Have been trying very hard to persuade myself to start study but I just can't get rid of the lazy bug in me, somehow my mind will just fight back by giving all the lame excuses, and finally, haven't study anything the whole day. Supposed to be a great weekend for me to start study without any work to do, instead, I end up staying on my bed the whole day, rolling around, playing with my computers, sleeping, and once a while get up and make something to eat, wasting my time doing nothing. So LAZY!!! Hopeless...I think I should locked myself up with just my books,desperate measure. Albert, Albert, go study now la...

My O&G Posting...

2009-07-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Hai hai, it’s been a “long” time since I’ve last updated my blog…very sorry, shouldn’t have left my pity blog “unattended”…O&G posting had been keeping me busy (excuses,haha!!). The “junior houseman” thing really had made my life upside down. Day work of 7am to 5pm, then on call from 5pm until 7am tomorrow, continue day work the next day until 5pm, this is how they treat houseman, can’t even think of a good night sleep, just to make you feel miserable. Anyway, I did have some good time. It was not as bad as what I thought initially, and I really have learnt a lot as compare to my third year. By the way, my supervisor was NICE. In fact, all doctors in yellow team are nice. And I even had chance to assist in a few surgeries, which to me is very exhausting. The incision is small but you have to stretch and retract it to expose all pelvic organs. Trust me, it needs a lot of energy, and by half way your biceps, triceps, deltoid and brachioradialis (basically most muscles of upper limb) had become fatigue, but you still have to retract it steadily. Pathetically, an assistant job is to suck, dap, cauterize, and retract only, don’t get it wrong. Anyway, really have to thanks all the doctors who have taught me a lot of things, and of course, this includes doctors in Hospital Slim River. For your information, I was posted in Hospital Slim River (somewhere in south of Perak) for 2 weeks, and I like the hospital very much. The doctors and staffs are all very nice and it was not as busy as UKMMC. We all just relax and enjoy there. Finally, the O&G posting had come to an end. What a relieve! But still, it was a fruitful posting…

A Series of Unfortunate Events

2009-06-13T10:00:00.001+08:00

At time the world can seem as an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe us when we say there is much more good than bad, all you have to do it’s to look hard enough, and what might seems to be a series of unfortunate events, may in fact, be the first step of a journey

"A Series of Unfortunate Events"

There are a lots of ups and downs in our life, and you might wonder why unfortunate events always happen on you, and you might blame the world why treat you as such. Instead of blaming, why don't you just change your perception, and you might see a better world. Had faith in you, be strong, it might be a long and difficult journey, but don't be afraid, because you have friends to go with you, holding your hand. Cheers!!

La Mien...

2009-05-20T13:38:00.014+08:00

Yesterday, 2 of my friends and I, out of no where, decided to go SS2 for dinner. It takes around 1 hours for us to reach there due to the traffic jam, and my stomach has already started grumbling before we even depart. Pathetic, craving for food, and with all the stupid traffic jam, we finally reach SS2. Well, SS2 is really a food paradise, various of food choices here, and most are recommended. I've been here a couple of times just for dinner or lunch. So, we went to this restaurant, One Noodle Restaurant "全一拉面", as the name applied, best ramen in the area. The interior of the restaurant is quite nice, quiet and comfortable, and the service is quite good. We ordered a "Shang Hai Steamed Dumpling", a "Tom Yam Seafood La Mien", a "Curry Seafood La Mien" and a " Shrimp and Fish La Mien".

The la mien was really nice, very Q and tasty. The soup was delicious and full of seafood: prawns, oysters, mussels, scallops, etc. And all came in a big bowl. Although it was a bit expensive, but still worth the price. I will definitely come here for lamien again, hehe!!!

Reflective Writing...

2009-05-13T15:45:00.006+08:00

My goodness...After struggling for many days, I finally finished my first reflective writing in my fifth year. For you information, unlike previous batch of medical students, we have to write reflective writings as part of our Personal and Professional Development module (PPD). And since first year, we have been writing more than forties of them. It always take me a long time just to write one and it's really suffer because I'm not really a reflective type of person. Like what Gine said, I always have to squeeze my "creative juice" from my long drought brain, and the "juice" just drip instead of gush (what a horrible metaphor). It's not that I don't have ideas on how to write it, in fact, I have so many ideas, but the ideas are just so vague that I just don't know how to form it into sentences. Anyway, I managed to finish it and really felt relieves for it (for not continuing squeezing my brain, it really hurts). *sigh*

Happy Birthday...

2009-05-11T01:10:00.008+08:00

10th of May, an important day for me, the day I was brought into this world, with full of anticipation and excitement, I was the first son and grandson for my parents and grandparents. According to my mother, I was said to bring luck to my grandfather as he won a 4D after I was born. Miracle hah!!

This year is my 23rd birthday, time really flies, so fast, I have passed my life for 23 years, thank God for giving me this wonderful life. I would never imagine myself having such good achievements in this stage of life, I'm blessed, and I hope I can have better achievement in the future, and strive the best.

While this might be the last birthday I have in my undergraduate programme, I would like to say thank you deeply from my heart to all my friends, who had been keep sending birthday message to me throughout the last 24 hours, thank you for the present (by the way, this is the second time I received a book as present, still indeed, its a valuable and useful present, and I will treasure this book throughout my lifetime), thank you for the dinner and thank you for the...after party,haha!!! You guys are really good friends, I can never live without you guys, and please just let me say it one more time, thank you.

With love...and happy birthday...

Glamorous and Glittering "Fashion"

2009-05-03T23:04:00.003+08:00

An ordinary girl from a small town of India , Chandigarh, decided to move to Mumbai, to pursue her dream of becoming a supermodel. "Fashion" depicts the reality of the glamorous and glittering world through the protagonist's eye. Evolves around alcoholic, smoking, drugs, affair, homosexual, sex, abortion, "Fashion" exposed the evil side of this sophisticated industry.

Stared by Miss World year 2000, Priyanka Chopra played as a small town girl, Meghna Mathur, who against her father's wishes, leaving her home trying to strike the fame in the modeling world. After struggling for some time, she finally reached the peak of her success and become the favourite faces of every designers across India. However, with the success over her head, she gradually found herself losing her humanity consciously, looking herself changing from an angel to a demon, doing things against her moral will, which then causing her career to a pitfall.

Directed by Madhur Bhandarkar, a top director of India, he had made the movie so real and convincing and yet still commercial. The depth analysis of fashion world and brutal issues depicts in the movies had made the work so unique. Together with the brilliant cast, this is an incredible and thrilling movie.

Finally, finally, finally…

2009-05-02T16:10:00.005+08:00

Finally, after waiting for 3 consecutive days, from 6.30am until 4pm everyday, I had finally performed my second and last forensic case. In case if some readers don’t understand what I’m talking about, medical students are required to perform two autopsies after observing ten of them. I means literally putting your hands on the corpse, dissect it and pull out every organ, either it’s fresh or decomposited. Scary?! Nope. As one of the forensic attendants told us, living human are more dangerous than the dead one, at least they cannot cause harm to you. Ok, back to the story. It’s very difficult to get one case, mostly one or two cases per week, and there are plenty students waiting to perform one. Therefore, three of my “crazy” friends and I, with the “kia su” spirit, plan to come as early as possible, afraid that we would miss one case. After waited for a long time, on the second day afternoon, at last, one case came in and was waiting for police order to be performed. Poor us, after waited for 2 hours, the police order still haven’t come in, the staff told us that the case will most probably performed on the next day, four of us, once again, with the tired broken heart, dragging our feet, going back. The next day, as usual, reach there at 6.30am, with full hope that the case will be performed that day, once again, waiting there like a “fool” for police order. Pathetic, police order didn’t come the whole morning, Prof Sharoom, our “savior”, stop by and pity at us, decided to call the police himself. Finally, Prof Sharoom got the police order and allowed us to perform the autopsy. After waited for a long time, finally we can perform a case. As what Yee Pin said, "my whole life is just about waiting, waiting for this waiting for that, burn all our precious time". Good luck for those who haven't performed it. Gambateh!

P/S: By the way, Suk Thing was extra-ordinary mania that day, strange phenomenon!!Yee Pin, I know what your feeling is...

Amazing Thailand - Reflection

2009-04-26T12:43:00.003+08:00

After a thirteen days backpacking trip to Thailand, I feel totally exhausted and tired, in the mean time, I find this journey very enjoying and meaningful. I keep telling Edmond that we had a spiritual tour in Thailand because 80% of the time we actually visiting temple. Just like Malaysia, an Islamic country, you can see mosque everywhere, in Thailand, you can see temple everycorner everystreet. Apart from the "spirituality" of our trip, we were also impressed by their amazing architecture with artistic sculpture and crafting, which is so special that it enhances the natural landscape, produces a magnificent phenomenon with the surrounding nature. And that is why Thailand is so well-known for it's beauties and cultures, which also makes it a famous tourism hotspot. Although the political situation in Thailand remains volatile during the time we visit, there were still tourists everywhere, even outnumber the locals in some places. Furthermore, the warm hospitality offered by the citizens had brought us a lot of joy during our journey.

Another thing is in Thailand you hardly can find a waste-bin. And ironically, I hardly can find any rubbish on the street. It kept me wonder where the Thais throw their rubbish. Furthermore, Thai's food are really cheap, you can buy a nice fried rice within 30 baht, which is less than RM3, and for those shopaholic, Thailand is a perfect shopping paradise for you. You can find anything you want in a cheaper price compare to Malaysia, eg. leather products, silk, handcrafts...There are also a variety of public transport available in Thailand, eg. taxi, bus, tut-tut, song thaew and so on. And their taxis are Toyota Corolla, which are way more luxurious than Malaysian taxis and in reasonable price too.

It was a memorable experience for me and Thailand had offered me a lot of joy, happiness and enjoyment. And definitely, this will not be the last trip for me to Thailand.

Amazing Thailand - Chiang Mai & Chiang Rai

2009-04-25T23:08:00.001+08:00

After Ayutthaya, we headed to the north by train in a 14 hours journey (the longest journey I have ever had, high risk of DVT) to a city called Chiang Mai. It is a city surrounded by some of the highest mountains in the country. The central of Chiang Mai is known as old city which is surrounded by moat and defensive walled, although it is much destroyed by Burmese and only the main gates and corners of the wall are left today.

We reached Chiang Mai around 7 o'clock in the morning, after having our breakfast and settling down in our guest house, we went for a half day tour at Doi Suthep and handcraft industry. Wat Phrathat Doi Suthep is one famous temple in this area, according to our tour guide, the monks allegedly chose its site by placing a relic of the Lord Buddha on an elephant's back and letting the elephant wander around until it came to a place where it trumpeted and circled, eventually lying down and died.

Handcraft Industry : Silk, Wood-craft, Umbrella, Silver

Later that evening, we went to the famous Sunday Market

Then we go around the old city the next day...(temple, temple and temple...over 300 temples in Chiang Mai)

On the following day, we wake up early in the morning and traveled to south of Chiang Mai for a day tour of jungle trekking, which include elephant riding, waterfall bathing and bamboo rafting. (Sorry because there was no photo for bamboo rafting as camera was not allowed to bring along in which it might fall into water, or your camera is water-resistant)

And finally, the Chiang Rai tour. It takes around 3-4 hours to travel to Chiang Rai. Along the road trip, we stop by at a hot spring half way. Then we headed to Wat Chedi Luang, one of the oldest temple in Chiang Rai. Soon after that, we departed to the Golden Triangle, which is a triangle border form by three countries: Myanmar, Thailand and Laos, a main opium-producing area in the old days. We then had a boat trip along the Mae Kok river and cruised to the land of Laos. We just stay there for around 1 hour, then we traveled to Myanmar-Thailand border, however, we were not able to cross the border due to strict control by the Burmese government. We later traveled for about 1 hour to Akha and Karen tribe village, or better known as long neck village. Then it marks the end of our trip.

Amazing Thailand - Ayutthaya

2009-04-21T15:46:00.003+08:00

Our second stop was Ayutthaya - the historical city of Thailand. Ayutthaya was a Siam Kingdom which existed since 1351 to 1761 until it was overtaken by Sukhotai the current Thai Kingdom. We traveled from Bangkok to Ayutthaya in a 2 hours train. We reached there in the afternoon and was planning to go around the city with bicycle after settle down. However, my stomach didn't do me the favor. I had been having stomach pain since the morning, and had diarrhea a couple of times before get into the train. Thought it will be OK after I reached Ayutthaya, however, it get worse. I had been constantly in and out the toilet soon after i checked in. Therefore, I've burned the whole day, doing nothing, just rest in our guest house. Fortunately, I felt better the next day, consider the fact of time consuming going around the city with bicycle and we have to leave the city in the afternoon, we called for a tut-tut to bring us around 1 hour for 200 baht. (a bit expensive, by the way) Again, most of our tour was visiting temple and the historical sites.

The old city which had been ruined by Burmese army are now known as Ayutthaya Historical Park, which is recognised internationally as a UNESCO World Heritage Site. It was famous for its Buddha's head overgrown by fig tree in Wat Mahatat.

Amazing Thailand - Bangkok

2009-04-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

My two months holiday had just ended last week. Instead of just rest and relax at home, I have traveled to some places and done some works. Since before the final exam of year four, my friend, Edmond and I had been planning to go Thailand-the country full of mystery, culture, art and smile. Soon after the exam, both of us hopped into the plane and fly over a duration of 1 hour and 45 minutes to reach Thailand for a 13 days trip. Our first stop was Bangkok - the capital city of Thailand.

In being the center of politic, economic and social for Thailand, Bangkok still preserve its culture and art, making it a diverse and exotic city. Being considered as one of the world's top tourist hotspot, Bangkok was crowded with foreigners. We stay in a guest house near Khao San Rd. - a very busy and hectic street where most tourists meet. Since Thailand is a Buddhist country, there are over hundreds of temples in Bangkok alone. And 80% of our trip in Bangkok is visiting temple or "Wat" in Thailand. The most important and Thailand's primary temple is Wat Phra Kaew, or the Emerald Buddha Temple. Along side is the Grand Palace, the King's official residence. Just 15 minutes away from Wat Phra Kaew is the Wat Pho, a temple which houses the longest reclining Buddha, measuring 46 meters. Across the Chao Phraya river is another notable temple, Wat Arun, or better know as Temple of the Dawn.

We also visited to Wat Saket, also known as Golden Mount Temple, famous with its large golden cupola; Wat Suthat and the Giant Swing; Wat Benchamobophit or Marble Temple; Wat Mahatat and so on. (too many of them, pictures speak a thousand words)

Of course, we didn't miss the famous floating market and other tourist's attractions like Victory Monument, Democracy Monument, The Ananta Samakhom Throne Hall and so on.

True Colours

2009-04-16T23:46:00.003+08:00

The first thing come into my mind when I wanted to start a blog is thinking about this song - "True Colours". It's a very classic song sang by Cyndi Lauper in 1986 (the year I born) in an album named "True Colors" written by Billy Steinberg and Tom Kelly.

But I see your true colors shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful, like a rainbow

It's a song from friend to friend telling one another not to be afraid of showing or expressing your true-self, not to be discourage or sad, and remember that friendship still be there with you all the time. It's a song that inspire me what kind of blog I want to start with. And I think this is the perfect one for me.

New Target...

2009-04-15T22:12:00.006+08:00

A new year should be start with some new targets, although usually I didn't really fulfill the targets ( don't know what's the purpose of setting it if not fulfilling it, hai...role eye).

OK, here's the list:

Read Kumar & Clark Clinical Medicine from skin to skin (I'm saying the big one here). Dr Azmi told us that he had even finish reading the big Kumar & Clark from skin to skin in third year. While I felt ashamed that I didn't even finish a quarter of small Kumar & Clark (wonder how i pass my medicine posting).
Hardworking, hardworking and hardworking. I had been very very lazy since third years, spending most of my time with my computer, movies, karaoke, shopping, play etc. Want to chase away all these lazy bugs now. There's no joke for final years.
Having a study group. Have to change my style of study now. No more study alone. Time to change.
Visualise positive, visualise I'll pass my professional exam, visualise I'll be hardworking, visualise I'll survive all the rocks and bumps, visualise...(sorry, I used to visualise negative)
Gain weight...(nothing to do with my study, but I have been trying it for a long time, just still not success yet)

I think that's all with my list (hmm...too much). Anyway, hope I can fulfill all...hehe:)

Good Luck...

2009-04-14T00:43:00.003+08:00

Sitting alone in my new room, staring at the desk lamp, is late at night but I just can't close my eyes, too many thoughts suddenly rush into my head, probably is the silent night that trigger my compressed thoughts after the whole day of work in the clinics today to pop out. Yes, I'm finally in my 5th year-final year. Really can't believe I was in my final year, seems like just yesterday when I was a clumsy innocent junior first step into this course. Even I myself felt funny and embarrassing for that time.

It's really not easy to pass through these four years. A lot of pain and tears but of course there are happy and joy too. And I gain a lot and lose some. This is how life should be: no pain no gain. I really appreciate all the experience I have been through, and this is not something that I can get from my previous school years. Now I can laugh all the way with it. A big thank you to everyone.

One more year to go now. I know it will be a lot of stress and pressure. Just hope that I can survive all the way and be what I have been dreaming to be. Good luck...

Sorry for the mess!

2009-04-13T13:02:00.000+08:00

I have to admit that my life is a mess. My room is a mess, my homework is a mess, my computer files are a mess, my relationship is a mess, and now even my blog is a mess. I believe some of you who know me would agree with me (strongly?!). Please forgive me with my mess. I’m trying my best to work it out now. Just give me some times. (Hope so!)

Here I am!

2009-04-13T13:01:00.000+08:00

I really can’t believe I’m doing this. I’m not a person who used to have a diary or scrap book along. My friends had been asking me (actually a lot of pressure from them) to have my own blog for a long time but I'm just lazy to come up one. Anyway, I have finally pulled my fingers up and come up with my own. So, welcome to my blog and nice to meet ya-all...:)