“A104226 LAM CHENSHEN lulus…” Really can’t believe I hear that from dean, as I was sitting anxiously, rubbing my fingers, with my cold sweaty palms, looking over to Julian and Hafiz, trying to get some reassurance…Yes, I got it…Finally, I can breath a sigh of relief…5 years of medical school, probably this is what we all have been waiting for. Still remember what a professor told us during my first year, “you are climbing the highest mountain now, you might fall or bump along the way, but don’t worry, get up and keep going, you will reach the highest point at some day”. Well, I have to say, it is not easy, the 5 years is like a battlefield, everyday you have to armoured yourself with knowledge and skills, and be prepared for any questions or tasks thrown to you, and more crucial, be prepared for losing, scolding, or down-grading. (A bit exaggerated, but I think you get what I mean). Anyway, we survive it.

Hai hai, it’s been a “long” time since I’ve last updated my blog…very sorry, shouldn’t have left my pity blog “unattended”…O&G posting had been keeping me busy (excuses,haha!!). The “junior houseman” thing really had made my life upside down. Day work of 7am to 5pm, then on call from 5pm until 7am tomorrow, continue day work the next day until 5pm, this is how they treat houseman, can’t even think of a good night sleep, just to make you feel miserable. Anyway, I did have some good time. It was not as bad as what I thought initially, and I really have learnt a lot as compare to my third year. By the way, my supervisor was NICE. In fact, all doctors in yellow team are nice. And I even had chance to assist in a few surgeries, which to me is very exhausting. The incision is small but you have to stretch and retract it to expose all pelvic organs. Trust me, it needs a lot of energy, and by half way your biceps, triceps, deltoid and brachioradialis (basically most muscles of upper limb) had become fatigue, but you still have to retract it steadily. Pathetically, an assistant job is to suck, dap, cauterize, and retract only, don’t get it wrong. Anyway, really have to thanks all the doctors who have taught me a lot of things, and of course, this includes doctors in Hospital Slim River. For your information, I was posted in Hospital Slim River (somewhere in south of Perak) for 2 weeks, and I like the hospital very much. The doctors and staffs are all very nice and it was not as busy as UKMMC. We all just relax and enjoy there. Finally, the O&G posting had come to an end. What a relieve! But still, it was a fruitful posting…

My goodness...After struggling for many days, I finally finished my first reflective writing in my fifth year. For you information, unlike previous batch of medical students, we have to write reflective writings as part of our Personal and Professional Development module (PPD). And since first year, we have been writing more than forties of them. It always take me a long time just to write one and it's really suffer because I'm not really a reflective type of person. Like what Gine said, I always have to squeeze my "creative juice" from my long drought brain, and the "juice" just drip instead of gush (what a horrible metaphor). It's not that I don't have ideas on how to write it, in fact, I have so many ideas, but the ideas are just so vague that I just don't know how to form it into sentences. Anyway, I managed to finish it and really felt relieves for it (for not continuing squeezing my brain, it really hurts). *sigh*