Messy room...Hmmm...Where should i start...It seems like over this past 3 years, I really had stored a lot of things in my room, my shelf, my cupboard, below my bed, even the corner of my room, are all packed with things...And rubbish...[sigh] So how? Can somebody tell me where should I start, a disaster is going to take place in my room...Thank you...And I'm lazy...

“A104226 LAM CHENSHEN lulus…” Really can’t believe I hear that from dean, as I was sitting anxiously, rubbing my fingers, with my cold sweaty palms, looking over to Julian and Hafiz, trying to get some reassurance…Yes, I got it…Finally, I can breath a sigh of relief…5 years of medical school, probably this is what we all have been waiting for. Still remember what a professor told us during my first year, “you are climbing the highest mountain now, you might fall or bump along the way, but don’t worry, get up and keep going, you will reach the highest point at some day”. Well, I have to say, it is not easy, the 5 years is like a battlefield, everyday you have to armoured yourself with knowledge and skills, and be prepared for any questions or tasks thrown to you, and more crucial, be prepared for losing, scolding, or down-grading. (A bit exaggerated, but I think you get what I mean). Anyway, we survive it.

A new year should be start with some new targets, although usually I didn't really fulfill the targets ( don't know what's the purpose of setting it if not fulfilling it, hai...role eye).

OK, here's the list:

1. Read Kumar & Clark Clinical Medicine from skin to skin (I'm saying the big one here). Dr Azmi told us that he had even finish reading the big Kumar & Clark from skin to skin in third year. While I felt ashamed that I didn't even finish a quarter of small Kumar & Clark (wonder how i pass my medicine posting).
2. Hardworking, hardworking and hardworking. I had been very very lazy since third years, spending most of my time with my computer, movies, karaoke, shopping, play etc. Want to chase away all these lazy bugs now. There's no joke for final years.
3. Having a study group. Have to change my style of study now. No more study alone. Time to change.
4. Visualise positive, visualise I'll pass my professional exam, visualise I'll be hardworking, visualise I'll survive all the rocks and bumps, visualise...(sorry, I used to visualise negative)
5. Gain weight...(nothing to do with my study, but I have been trying it for a long time, just still not success yet)

I think that's all with my list (hmm...too much). Anyway, hope I can fulfill all...hehe:)

Sitting alone in my new room, staring at the desk lamp, is late at night but I just can't close my eyes, too many thoughts suddenly rush into my head, probably is the silent night that trigger my compressed thoughts after the whole day of work in the clinics today to pop out. Yes, I'm finally in my 5th year-final year. Really can't believe I was in my final year, seems like just yesterday when I was a clumsy innocent junior first step into this course. Even I myself felt funny and embarrassing for that time.

It's really not easy to pass through these four years. A lot of pain and tears but of course there are happy and joy too. And I gain a lot and lose some. This is how life should be: no pain no gain. I really appreciate all the experience I have been through, and this is not something that I can get from my previous school years. Now I can laugh all the way with it. A big thank you to everyone.

One more year to go now. I know it will be a lot of stress and pressure. Just hope that I can survive all the way and be what I have been dreaming to be. Good luck...

I have to admit that my life is a mess. My room is a mess, my homework is a mess, my computer files are a mess, my relationship is a mess, and now even my blog is a mess. I believe some of you who know me would agree with me (strongly?!). Please forgive me with my mess. I’m trying my best to work it out now. Just give me some times. (Hope so!)